Greatness of God

Gazing at the starry hosts that decorate the sky painted in dark hues of blues, I am bewildered. The known galaxy keeps on expanding and expanding, something very difficult to fully comprehend in our small minds. The universe keeps going and going, and yet at the same time what fascinates and just stirs my mind is the greatness of God. God is far bigger than the universe, because He has No beginning or end, there is absolutely no limit to him...He is perfect. His love amazes me, us being so small and "a little lower than the angels" are bestowed such honor, His eyes are on us. We are the apple of His eyes, of Him, Master of the universe, in which the very universe and infinity is but a grain of sand in the palm of his hands.

Through this perspective I am able to know who my God is. He is a God of the supernatural, absolutely nothing is impossible for Him. 

Summer Life

Isn't it funny how a school day feels like an entire week, while a week in Summer feels like a day? This isn't my only mere assumption, in the Summer we savor our days. Yes in school we learn, expand our knowledge, make friends, but for the most part we are tormented. I have always been fascinated with learning new things, but staying up each night writing endless papers and studying, not very joyous. Other than that right now I am free. I have 12 wonderful weeks of summer vacation. My third week is about to resume, I have 9 left. You might ask, what have I done with these weeks? Well, to tell you the truth, I have highly enjoyed them.        

Pleasant reading is one of the things I have indulged myself into. If you know me, ever since I was 7 years old, I have been an avid bookworm. I am always reading books, about five at the same time. Currently piles of them surround my room. I don't want to bore you more with my reading, but I can't help it. I just finished last week, "My Name is Asher Lev" by Chaim Potok. Wow, I have to admit I was somewhat disappointed with a certain aspect of the book, yet at the same time it has been one of the best books I've come across through. Very confused sentiments towards this novel. It is finely articulated, engrossing and an enthralling read. I won't give much more information regarding the book other than it tells the story of a young Hasidic boy who is an artist. I'm about to start on the sequel, and I am very excited. I think I get very excited about books the same way many people get thrilled about new films or video games coming out. 

Now going into films, I have highly anticipated to see the trailer of the upcoming The Voyage of the Dawn Treader. This is the third film in the blockbuster hits, and I have to admit, this book in the Narnia series is my favorite. Disney backed down to do the film because of "creative differences", which we all now it is in reference to budget. Huge mistake! We all know Prince Caspian is the most boring and least liked book in the series, so of course it was not going to be as successful as The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe. Anyhow, I saw the World Midnight Premiere Trailer of Narnia, and I am so stoked! These books have been a huge part of me growing up, they aren't only children's stories, they contain so much meaning and spritual depth in them. C.S. Lewis stated,

"Since Narnia is a world of Talking Beasts, I thought He [Christ] would become a Talking Beast there, as He became a man here. I pictured Him becoming a lion there because (a) the lion is supposed to be the king of beasts; (b) Christ is called "The Lion of Judah" in the Bible; (c) I'd been having strange dreams about lions when I began writing the work. The whole series works out like this.

The Magician's Nephew tells the Creation and how evil entered Narnia.

The Lion etc the Crucifixion and Resurrection.

Prince Caspian restoration of the true religion after corruption.

The Horse and His Boy the calling and conversion of a heathen.

The Voyage of the "Dawn Treader" the spiritual life (especially in Reepicheep).

The Silver Chair the continuing war with the powers of darkness

The Last Battle the coming of the Antichrist (the Ape), the end of the world and the Last Judgement."'

Okay, enough with my childhood fancies. Now with the rest of my Summer...I have been attempting to learn guitar, and no I"m no good at it. My fingers are accustomed to violin, and the guitar is vastly different. But we all have to start from somewhere don't we? Been hanging out a lot with friends, watching movies, playing, writing and creating music. I love my friends. Long night phone conversations, how I miss them. I'm quite the talker, and please forgive me. Also new news from my favorite artist and bands! Jaci Velasquez, (I've been a huge devout fan since I was 8 years old) has finally announced that she is working on an upcoming Spanish album. The last Spanish album she released I was a freshman in high school, I'm now going to be a college senior. This is huge news, I love her English music, but her Spanish music is awfully much much better. Also received my tickets for the Hillsong Live: Beautiful Exchange tour, which I'm also thrilled about.

I am now desperately craving a beach cruiser so bad, I have always wanted one, and the Summer just seems like the perfect setting. I have also been planning to go to certain shows and concerts with friends, and I really want to go see Peter Pan in San Francisco. Which reminds me, I need to go back to the city, it's only an hour drive. Please excuse random thoughts fluttering out of no where, this isn't a formal essay you know, I can write anything that is in my head. I also want a moped scooter. I can just imagine the magic of riding one, especially down an Italian street..Aww yes! 

On the other note, I put down of going on a trip to Colorado where they were going to pay for my conference and hotel, it's just it interfered with friend's birthdays, and also budget for a plane ticket. Surprisingly, I'm not upset, I am cool. I'm doing a lot in my church in bible studies, bringing in new tunes and leading worship. God has truly been opening doors for my life and ministry this year, things are happening that I would have never thought would come through. God has been doing amazing things in my local church and my life. I can trully say that I am beyond blessed. Why He loves me and blesses me so much, I don't know. I really don't deserve the life and gifts He's given me. He just keeps blessing me, and I'm like "Father, I have failed You so much, why do You keep blessing and loving me? I really don't deserve any of this". I can't wait to see what else God has in stored for me, I am just very excited about life right now and where He is taking me. I am enjoying each and every day, spending more time with my family, loving life and living it.

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He Knows

I do not know why I am confronting this battle, but I know I will defeat these giants! My mom once told me, "Everyone has giants to conquer, this is just yours, and you will defeat them".

Sometimes, or most of the time, I just don't understand God. I am unable to comprehend what He is doing. The really funny thing, is that I constantly forget who is in control, it is not me, it is God. I forget to look back and see where I was and where I am right now. There's a vast sum of things I've gone through that I did not seem to understand at the prescise moment when I was battling with these "things". I look back, and smile.

I forget to remember that God is forming me. He is shaping me day by day to be more like Him.

 God knows absolutely everything that has happened, what is currently happening, and what the future holds for me. God, I do not know why I am going through this, why I was made like this, why I feel like this, why they do this to me, blah, blah, blah....I will probably never fully understand. Our minds in comparison to God's are negative infinity (if that exists) to infinity, times infinity, to the infinite power, times over and over. Okay, that probably caused confusion.

" 'For My thoughts are not your thoughts, nore are your ways My ways,' says the Lord. 'For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are My ways higher than your ways, and My thoughts than your thoughts' ".

-Isaiah 55:8-9

He IS ALWAYS doing something, and He is going to do far greater things than I can ever imagine.